Isn't it amazing how you can fall in love with people you don't really know.
It all started for me in my car... My father was driving us to a baby shower, and he said cautiously, "Don't get upset, but there is this boy, he comes from a very good family, he has studied.... blah... blah"
What stood out for me in the conversation was the excitement that my parents could not hide in their voices and the one fact about this boy... "he has an emotion in his voice"
But hay!!! If I had to give this nice boy a chance to come into my life... I just had to know "Papa, I can understand he is a nice boy... But does he like dogs?"
It turned out he liked dogs, so I agreed to talk to this nice boy, who was indeed turning out to be nice.
And then before I knew what happened, I was not just talking to him, but I was finding out about his family. Childhood stories, naughty things he did, how his mother made yummy food and took him to his uncle's home, how she told him off when he ate out and made sure he had his home cooked meals, how is father took care of him and how his brother always looks out for him, and in the process... it happened, I fell in love, not just with the man I am going to spend the rest of my life with, but his family.
It suddenly dawned on me today, that eventhough I have not met his family, a part of me longs to see them, a part of me wishes they were here with us while we get engaged, and part of me has realised that I have fallen in love with them.
So as I happily dream of our first meeting, I wonder, is it possible that they feel the same way about me - and something inside me says YES!!!! :)
December 21, 2005
"Count your blessings, count them one by one...."
My father's voice sings in my head "Count your blessings, count them one by one...."
In my family, my parents are a beacon of positivity... No matter what we have been face with my parents have come out as winners simply because they believe.
I wonder... How did I become so negative. Its not in my nature to be negative, its not my natural response, yet sometimes I am caught in the web of negativity... Where I feel my life is a complete waste as I have not achieved anything.
And then I hear my father's voice singing in my head and my mother saying "Be positive, believe in god and give it your best shot... Everything will work out", and now my man, he says, "How can you be negative? It just doesn't suite you"
I am very lucky I have all of them to guide me through my shadowy moments :).
I am forever grateful and devoted to them.
In my family, my parents are a beacon of positivity... No matter what we have been face with my parents have come out as winners simply because they believe.
I wonder... How did I become so negative. Its not in my nature to be negative, its not my natural response, yet sometimes I am caught in the web of negativity... Where I feel my life is a complete waste as I have not achieved anything.
And then I hear my father's voice singing in my head and my mother saying "Be positive, believe in god and give it your best shot... Everything will work out", and now my man, he says, "How can you be negative? It just doesn't suite you"
I am very lucky I have all of them to guide me through my shadowy moments :).
I am forever grateful and devoted to them.
October 29, 2005
WOOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!
Guys and Gals!!!!
I have news for you all :)
1. I got a JOB :)
2. I AM GETTING MARRIED
*WeEeeeEeeeEeee WeeeEeeeEeee*
to an amazing man who knows how to make me smile.
I am so glad I met you Lateralbuzz.
And here you go I am going to say this so that the whole world knows how I feel about you
"I love you "
I have news for you all :)
1. I got a JOB :)
2. I AM GETTING MARRIED
*WeEeeeEeeeEeee WeeeEeeeEeee*
to an amazing man who knows how to make me smile.
I am so glad I met you Lateralbuzz.
And here you go I am going to say this so that the whole world knows how I feel about you
"I love you "
October 04, 2005
Can't go to bed...
I can’t seem to go to bed tonight. I am exhausted, both physically from all the exercise and mentally from all the study. Yet I can’t seem to go to bed. :(
It’s not so much a nagging thought, just a bit of self doubt I guess. I know I am not in complete control of my life or even know exactly what I want.
I have different parts of me that wants different things, A part of me wants to go backpacking around most parts of the world, do some aid work in Africa or even India for a couple of years. Another part of me wants to work and build my future. And yet another part wants companionship. Depending on the day you talk to me and the time of the day I could want any one of those three lives.
Sometimes I wonder if I can roll them all into my one life, and other time I feel it’s not possible.
I guess only time will tell where I end up and how happy I will be and yet, I am unwilling to let go ... to be out of control.
At times I feel life is too short to analyse and regret ones actions, sometime I think we should just “go with the flow”. Then there are times when I feel… I guess “go with the flow” is only good if people don’t get hurt. And sometimes, it’s hard to predict the future and to know if your actions or decisions will hurt anyone.
It’s not so much a nagging thought, just a bit of self doubt I guess. I know I am not in complete control of my life or even know exactly what I want.
I have different parts of me that wants different things, A part of me wants to go backpacking around most parts of the world, do some aid work in Africa or even India for a couple of years. Another part of me wants to work and build my future. And yet another part wants companionship. Depending on the day you talk to me and the time of the day I could want any one of those three lives.
Sometimes I wonder if I can roll them all into my one life, and other time I feel it’s not possible.
I guess only time will tell where I end up and how happy I will be and yet, I am unwilling to let go ... to be out of control.
At times I feel life is too short to analyse and regret ones actions, sometime I think we should just “go with the flow”. Then there are times when I feel… I guess “go with the flow” is only good if people don’t get hurt. And sometimes, it’s hard to predict the future and to know if your actions or decisions will hurt anyone.
October 03, 2005
Welcome Back Lateralbuzz :)
Am so glad you are back to our blog world. It just wasn't the same without you. I hope no future events will make you want to delete your blog again.
Tachi, Tachi Tachi!!!! sakaglilva putta? heehee :)
churu oota nu madu hange. bare halu kudi beda.
k :)
Tachi, Tachi Tachi!!!! sakaglilva putta? heehee :)
churu oota nu madu hange. bare halu kudi beda.
k :)
My Insane but happy life ...
First of all.... Thank you for my miracle. :)
Not a lot of people know how insane my life really is.
This semester is not too bad at all considering... I am working only over the weekends and I have cut out on all the extra-curricular activities, halted my social life and of course... am doing 6 subjects instead of the usual insane 8.
You would think am cruising right!!!
WRONG!!!
I have the tremendous knack of complicating my life and making things hard for my self.
:) I have to say… half the problem is I am way too emotional.
Analyse, analyse, analyse…. My brain does not want to stop the self-analysis. And then there is the procrastination – one of my worst faults. Sometimes I think the busier I am, the more organised I am.
Now that I am on a mission to set every little thing straight in my life, lets hope I have good news all round in the next few weeks.
Top of the agenda is to get my nasty project completed, and at the same time loose a bit of weight… will keep you updated… with a lot of positive news I hope :)
Psssssssss…. Fingers crossed for the job interview on Wednesday.
I have to also add…. “Welcome to my Special Man.” I am so glad we met. Every message, every call… makes me smile :)
Not a lot of people know how insane my life really is.
This semester is not too bad at all considering... I am working only over the weekends and I have cut out on all the extra-curricular activities, halted my social life and of course... am doing 6 subjects instead of the usual insane 8.
You would think am cruising right!!!
WRONG!!!
I have the tremendous knack of complicating my life and making things hard for my self.
:) I have to say… half the problem is I am way too emotional.
Analyse, analyse, analyse…. My brain does not want to stop the self-analysis. And then there is the procrastination – one of my worst faults. Sometimes I think the busier I am, the more organised I am.
Now that I am on a mission to set every little thing straight in my life, lets hope I have good news all round in the next few weeks.
Top of the agenda is to get my nasty project completed, and at the same time loose a bit of weight… will keep you updated… with a lot of positive news I hope :)
Psssssssss…. Fingers crossed for the job interview on Wednesday.
I have to also add…. “Welcome to my Special Man.” I am so glad we met. Every message, every call… makes me smile :)
September 16, 2005
Life without friends....
The very thought of it makes me uneasy and nervous. I have flashes of being trapped in a musty old celler, a feeling of lonelyness and hopelessness fills my chest, and I long to be saved by a friend.
My dad always said, we are social creatures, fortunately or unfortunately, and to be happy and successful we needed to develop social skills. I have to say I am not “Party-every-weekend” kind of girl, but if you were to ask me about memorable times, they will usually involve an occasion where I was surrounded by family and friends who love me.
I do have a lot of close friends, people I have met in very varied circumstances and people who I share a special bond with. I have made friends at school and university, at work, in a bus stop or a train, and to this day I have never regretted having met or allowed anyone to come into my life.
I found myself asking a question, I would have never normally asked. Could I live a life without friends? And the thought of it sends shivers down my spine. Let me make some things clear. I was not “Miss popular” in school with a trillion friends. I have always treasured my friends, because I thought of them as rare jewels that a few are fortunate to find. I have always put in my effort, because I believe it is important not to take any relationship for granted. So I was not handed friends on a silver platter.
I find that my friends have become an extension of my family and I am always eager and keen to make new friends.
So a simple straight forward answer to the question “Could I live a life without friends?” would simply be – NO. Not if I wanted to live a sane and happy life. That’s because my friends help me balance my life, they are an integral part of my life and who I am. I hope I am fortunate enough to love and treasure them for the rest of my life.
My dad always said, we are social creatures, fortunately or unfortunately, and to be happy and successful we needed to develop social skills. I have to say I am not “Party-every-weekend” kind of girl, but if you were to ask me about memorable times, they will usually involve an occasion where I was surrounded by family and friends who love me.
I do have a lot of close friends, people I have met in very varied circumstances and people who I share a special bond with. I have made friends at school and university, at work, in a bus stop or a train, and to this day I have never regretted having met or allowed anyone to come into my life.
I found myself asking a question, I would have never normally asked. Could I live a life without friends? And the thought of it sends shivers down my spine. Let me make some things clear. I was not “Miss popular” in school with a trillion friends. I have always treasured my friends, because I thought of them as rare jewels that a few are fortunate to find. I have always put in my effort, because I believe it is important not to take any relationship for granted. So I was not handed friends on a silver platter.
I find that my friends have become an extension of my family and I am always eager and keen to make new friends.
So a simple straight forward answer to the question “Could I live a life without friends?” would simply be – NO. Not if I wanted to live a sane and happy life. That’s because my friends help me balance my life, they are an integral part of my life and who I am. I hope I am fortunate enough to love and treasure them for the rest of my life.
September 14, 2005
Family is Everything :)
I told them it’s embarrassing. But they wanted to do this anyway. So here is Amma and Appa with the La-porchetta man.
Sam-pam-tho-zingang with Petrol Pooja, doing some brother-sister bonding.
They EMBARRASS you sometimes, but hay! life would just not be the same if they did not do it.
The fishing trip where we caught nothing :)
Karan pretending to hurl in a big catch :)
The guys chilling. If you ask me where I am, Halooooo!!! who do you think is taking the snaps.
Some Christmas Party Snaps
Roses are not always red...
Rose from our garden. Isn't it perfect. I think they don't have to be red to be beautiful.
Me aka Road Rani (heehee)
I have been called Road Rani (because of the way I drive of course). I mean I am a very safe driver; just once in a while, my path is hindered by obstacles on the road like red lights, give way signs and the likes.
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